same same but different...

this is supposedly a common quote from the Thais, and when i first heard it, it sounded like a joke. But it was apt to describe how i feel after returning from Krabi. Same same but different. As i walked with ah ru back home, the hub looked the same, and the crowd remained. Yet, the feeling was different. Perhaps after an exposure, one would view the usual surroundings in a different perspective. The lifestyle, the pace of living, the type of people on the streets, are invariably highlighted. I'm happy to be home, yet there seems to be something missing when i return. the bustling life at the hub signals that i'm back at home, where i have access to many places and have more choices for activities at night as compared to Krabi, yet i miss the serenity over at this island. Though the latter island has been tailored for tourists, there are still scenic areas where we could glance at the blue sky, and feel the sea water lapping against our feet. There are times when we would latch on a cliff, taking quiet moments to admire the view beneath.

same same yet different. the people whom i went with were the same buddies in the rock gym, yet every trip allows me to know a little more about them, and they too, know a little more about me. There always seem to be lessons that i can learn from them; how they motivate themselves to push beyond their limits (eg LY coaxed her arms to continue and then she will let them off), learning to be resourceful, and noting the actions of giving.

the same me but different sides emerged through the trip. i feel disappointed as i let anger take control of me again. stuck on a particular route, i just lost my calmness and unleashed vulgarities, each word with frustration; it was as though nothing could have cool my mind. i could no longer plan, as anger became my focus. i lost my battle again, anger reigned. It was not the unsuccessful attempt to complete the route that upset me, but rather the inabilty to control my frustrations. sometimes i feel tired learning to do so, and would like to give up, but i know it would do me no good if i were to allow anger to spiral outwards. Anger management is perhaps a neverending lesson i have to take on.

i guess one can't help but take more notice of negative incidents during reflection. BUT BUT.. the few days we spent together were memorable, for the company was great! so there are many nutty moments we shared; think we need not drink Singha (beer) to keep us high sia.. haha.. so much to recall and so lazy to type.. hehe.. i think it's easier to talk abt them then write.. haha.. shall upload photos soon.. hope my hands didn't shake while snapping those shots..